Did you miss me when I was away?
I didn’t realise you had.
I genuinely didn’t think about how you might miss me when I was gone.
I left selfishly, without a thought or care about anyone at home.
I wanted to go away, to work abroad.
I wanted to explore some of the World, to have my mind opened to new things, new ways of living.
I wanted to help the poor, the disabled children and share some of what I had learnt about Speech and Language Therapy.
I did not think about you.
I did not know you would find it hard without me here.
It sounds big headed just writing about it.
I missed you but I thought you would not really think of me.
I didn’t realise that when I thought about staying away longer, you found that hard to deal with.
I didn’t think that when I said I didn’t want to come home and leave Ecuador, that actually that might have offended you.
Again, I did not think about anyone but myself.
Now that I am back, I am sorry that I made you feel a bit sad whilst I was away.
I am sorry for being selfish.
I want you to know I missed you greatly.
My mind is still working out where it is and where it should be.
I am now living in a different country, culture and language to where I have been the past year.
Please be patient with me as I adjust.
Please bare with me if I cry, talk a lot or just sit in silence.
Please give me time to work out what I will do next.
There are so many possibilities.
That is an exciting adventure.
I am SO pleased to be home.
I no longer live on a different continent to you.
I love that I can see you all the time.